Down but not out!

Deb and I have been pretty wasted when it comes to the emotional roller coaster with this housing situation. Just when you think you've got it figured out, wham your whole life gets turned around.
We seriously contemplated whether this was the final answer. It was a huge door slamming in our face. We still feel the call to Benton Harbor. Deb woke up that evening we got the news and said she prayed to get Satan away from us. I am so amazed at her desire. When I remember her attitude towards this adventure at first it's truly a transformation.
We joined a team from Allendale Wesleyan on Saturday. We had set up a Valentines party for the kids at Benton Harbor Street Ministries. everyone had a great time and I can remember stepping back at one time and said to myself this is where we belong.
I remeber feeling really depressed at the thought of stayimg in Allendale. So we are now relisted with a realtor and awaiting more showings. I have to admit it's been hard to see the house we were to call home has now had another offer and they are awaiting all the inspections etc. I knew it wouldn't last long.
So we are starting to look for homes again and trying to move foward. It will be cool to see where this journey ends. I'm hoping God is using us to be an example for others. I'm hoping that we are not messing it up!
Continuing the journey!
Randy and Deb

Lamentations

Today Deb and I recieved terrible news. The home we have been excited about buying is now out of our reach. The couple that was to buy our home cannot afford the mortgage due to the woman losing her job.
I feel sorry forthem also. This was to be there first home. Losing a job has got to be devastating as well.
So the domino effect starts. We had to let the realtors know that our offer has to be cancelled also. We are both pretty bewildered, shocked, and frankly I'm a little pissed off. I can't help but wonder why this happened. Everything was coming together so nicely. I was praising the big guy for his wonderful blessings. I still praise him but I shake my fist at him at the same time.
So what does this all mean? Like Deb said tonight "this was a pretty big door that slammed shut". I have been so excited about the opportunity to serve in Benton Harbor. I have been getting to know the area and where I will be working. There is much work to be done and I was gearing up to get busy when we moved there.
We have some real processing to do here.
This just sucks on so many different levels. The first person that gets super spiritual and says some corny Christian saying wil probably get an ear full. I think I need to stay far away from most of those types right now. I'd rather go hang out with guys from the mission right now.
I know I'm rambling.
I'm willing to do what he wants I just wish he'd make up my mind!