Mixed Emotions

Well it's been quite a weekend. Saturday night I had three things I was supposed to attend. Of course we all know the world would be better if there were three of me! ha ha. My work party, a vision chat party for Overflow www.overflowchurch.org , and to top it off Saturday afternoon my dad calls me and tells me that my 92yr. old grandmother fell at the nursing home and is not expected to live. She had contracted pnuemonia and was going down hill quickly.
I had already decided not to attend my Christmas party. Deb was shopping in Detroit with some girlfriends from work. I was really excited to attend the vision party. To be a part of this exciting adventure is truly a humbling honor. I can't wait to see what God can do through us in Benton Harbor. I did not plan on visiting the hospital.
This may sound cruel but let me explain. I have never had much of a relationship with my grandparents. They have always lived a couple of hours away. We would see them only a couple of times a year.
I was on my way to Benton Harbor when this feeling of guilt came over me. My parents were traveling back from visiting my brother in South Carolina. They asked my brother to help them get back home. Here I was only 25miles away and I haven't even made an appearance. At that point I knew I had to turn around and go to the hospital. I didn't want to, I hate hospitals.
I called my mother and she was at the hospital crying on the phone as she talked to me. I knew it was the right thing to do.
Throughout the weekend I saw family members I hadn't seen in many years. My Grandmother is now still hanging in there which promotes another mixed emotion. She would like to go see Jesus and I feel it would be a blessing for all of us. Her quality of life will suck if she pulls through. Suddenly giving a call to Jack Kivorkian doesn't seem so cruel.
I really missed not being in Benton Harbor but I know I did right by being there for my family.
Blessings,
Randy